Hello. It's been a while. Several hundred messages a while, I'm afraid. I'm finally back down to zero. I've had to work through some hefty problems in myself and subsequently had a major shift in my life. First to get the heaviest bit off my shoulders, I no longer want to create art for any money. At all. Not to be down on those trying to make a living on it, that's wonderful if you can manage it. To tell the truth I don't know what direction I'm exactly heading anymore and that's fine for once. I missed getting to draw for myself; a thing I hadn't done since I was twelve.
Twelve was a strange age that was for me. It was the first time I realized I was an individual, fought against bullies who had taunted me for years before -even threw one across three desks-, was told by a doctor due to an ascended testicle I would never be able to have children, and because of these two major elements had what amounted to an existential breakdown. I was terrified to talk to girls lest my secret should somehow become public. So I dove into the one medium I felt I could trust, my comics. I had foolishly decided then and there that my life was going to be drawing comics and that I was going to be a force in the artform at any cost. Maybe it wasn't so foolish. It seemed right because everyone told me to choose a career. At twelve. Come to think of it, the foolish ones were the adults.
If I may give some advice to any young people reading this, take life slower and don't tell yourself you have to be anything ever. Take time to appreciate life because it is fragile and worth living. When people tell you you could make money at something don't let that worry you. Hell, you can make money at just about anything really. Not even limited to prostitution, art, or hiding behind bushes yelling -Boo!- Money has proven to be the least important thing in my life. Believe me, I didn't have any to begin with and I barely have any still.
But my art is something I was born with and still have. I will no doubt be drawing till my hands fall off or my brain cavity collapses from too much coffee. I've been drawing all this time I've been offline but have been hesitant to post due to this conflict.
I will post more stuff soon but I won't take requests or commish work. However I will suggest a few friends who could use the work.
Anyhoo, Happy new year! And much love to everyone.